HAPPY BRITHDAY MARS!

YOU KNOW THAT I LOVE YOU AND ALWAYS WILL.
YOU NEVER FAIL TO BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY OR TO MAKE ME SMILE
IM SO GLAD TO HAVE KNOWN YOU AND TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE
THANKS FOR THE PMSES EVERYDAY, I LOVE YOU
THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE WHEN I NEEDED YOU.
ALTHOUGH AT TIMES YOU GET ME REALLY PISSED, I STILL LOVE YOU. (I KNOW YOU KNOW THAT)
I TRUELY APPRECIATE OUR FRIENDSHIP AND I'LL NEVER FORGET YOU EVER!

i still remember my vow i made to you last year and i've kept it. ( i know you know )
Clubbing this thurs??

DANCE THE NIGHT AWAY WITH ME

xoxo

I didnt really do much for my birthday. My darling bibi brought me for ben & jerry's, so sweet thanks love!! i really enjoyed myself. I had like some brownie ice cream thing and he had banana something2. cant really remember but it was so fucking good! We didnt stay for long because there wasnt any smoking area there. We headed down to seletar reservoir to chill for abit. OMG! the scenery is so nice. bibi, we should do this more often yea. ILOVEYOU!! so anywayz, i'll upload photos soon. Im too busy today, heading down to bugis with my babygirls to meet the sponsors. OMG, im super stressed about M8 hopefully we'll be able to make it through, dont worry i have faith in all of us. will update soon. need to go get ready. LOVES!

hehe omg i cant wait! 2 more days to my birthday! finally, im legal to club dont have to sneak in anymore. hahaha but then again i'll miss the thrill. you know the feeling of satisfaction when you get to go in? haha so anw, was at mars place today with nas, steph and mars film group. we had dinner downstairs her place. the beef hor fun was damn shiokaduu ok but they should cut down on the black sauce. Homeclub on sat was pretty ok. Met up with my dearest jerri. Sheesha-ed at arab st then walked to homeclub. We decided to have a pre bday celebration since we're both always busy. =) i had alot of fun with you babe, we should do this more often. maybe once im done with my stupid projects ok. anywayz, the girls and i plan to go to arena on my bday but not too sure cos, 1. busy schedule 2. boyfie might not let 3. its the fasting mth. so yea. we'll see bout that. ok im freaking tired. will update soon. LOVES!

I havent blogged in a really long time due to the endless amount of projects. Seriously, i think im gonna faint. M8 sucks to the freaking core ok. Luckily i have nas in my group otherwise i think i'll just die. Besides that, my birthday is coming!! hehe 24th september. cant wait! i doubt i'll be celebrating becos of the fasting month and final year projects, i dunno. we'll see. anyway, here are some pics of THE DAYS gala premier. You guys have to go watch the movie ok thx.

meet marisse, i love you bitch

meet steph, my darling jm 9 yrs and counting

meet nas, i love you too! you suck.

mr nick! *steph's honey in white*

step sia our faces

suffian and the girls. hehe

Sometimes i wonder to myself, do i really want "this" for the rest of my life? I 've fallen too deep and im afraid i cant get out of it. I dont wanna loose you. Im just scared that this may not be what i want. If only things could be different. Im sorry but i dont know how to say it to you and this is my only way out. You said that if none of us is ever gonna give in then we can never be together. I can never find anyone else to replace you and now that i've fallen deeply in love with you, there's no way out. Im like stuck in a deep deep hole. Its hard for me to give up my religion like it is for you. Many a times people ask me, are you really gonna convert? and my answer is I dont know. Omg i seriously dont know what to do, im stuck and confused.


You are my happiness
you are my one true love
You are my everything
and angle that GOD
sent from above

Your eyes are like the sunshine
your beautiful as the sea
Your kisses feel so lovely to me
Thats why you are my everything

There are so many words
that can express how i feel
you make me feel so beautiful
you made this fairytale
become real

I know I'm not perfect
but ill always be true
i love you so much
ill do anything for you

i know love in the pass
has lead me the wrong way
but this time its real
its just something i can feel

You are my life
you are my dreams
you are everything to me
i hope one day you will marry me!!

You are my joy
you are my pain
life without you
i could not maintain

You are my husband
and i am your wife
Your the one that has
brightened up my life

And all because
you have loved me too
You are my everything!!!!
My fairytale that has come true!!!!

I had awesome fun with my girls yesterday, steph had two extra tickets for NDP so nas and i decided to go. City hall was so fucking packed with soo many people. I waited for steph at raffles city, i was looking out for her but couldnt find her because everyone was wearing the same colours. She was actually just standing infront of me. Waited for nas, cam-whored in the toilet, headed down to NDP. The show was good i enjoyed the fireworks display very muched. We kept laughing non-stop because there were so many funny people. Headed down to BK eating house for dinner. The food was delicious!! Steph's Mee sua was damn shiokk. I had Ban mian and Nas had Nasi Lemak. While i was buying my food, some weird guy gave me his number. He wrote his number on a piece of paper then asked nas to pass it to me. EEEE!! grosss shit. Overall, we had alot of fun! will update soon.

xoxo

everything happens for a reason

I love, i laugh, i live, i cry, i eat, i sleep, i drink, i smoke.
The long hours of school have wearied me out. i dont think i will be able to stay awake for the next 5mins36secs. I wanna see him, see him so badly. He's the reason for my smile. God, i love him! period.

a penny saved is a penny earned

I've come to realise that you dont need certain people and the bullshit they bring into your life. Im content with what i have now. I wanna go on a holiday, to a place where i can find peace and serenity. I cant wait for chinese new year. $$$. i need to SAVE!

hello love, take me away with you

I prefer to speak than write.
I wanna go on a magical journey.

Choose Life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol, and dental insurance. Choose fixed interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisurewear and matching luggage. Choose a three-piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who the fuck you are on Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing, spirit-crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pissing your last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked up brats you spawned to replace yourselves. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that? I chose not to choose life. I chose somethin' else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who needs reasons when you've got heroin?

common sense is not so common

We live each day caught amidst in a dream state one in which we are unable to awaken.

Things happen around us and about us just as the sript is written.

Our futures are already planned out for us therefore, just as the actor on stage we portray the character day after day.

We are all characters playing our parts in this world our play but in the end, when its over our characters fade away.

hello everyone

Ok guys im back again. sorry for the irregular updates. i've been super busy. So many things have changed during this past few months, Good and bad. I'll start off with the bad stuff first ok, nearly got expelled from school because of attendance. ( as usual ) was given a last warning by my section head. Marisse and i have to retake our stupid audio module again next yr for 6 mths which is a waste of time. im dying to graduate this year. Seriously, i'll quit if i have to retake again next year. The good, filming for toni and guy grad show this saturday! looking forward to the $$$. hahaha. i really need to save man, i've been spending unnecessarily, oh well haha. i'll be going for an interview with silkair this sunday with my girl, jerry. Cant wait! wish me luck. so if i get this job, i'll quit school. Hopefully i get it tho, i've been waiting for this day to come. lalala!! Cant wait for tmr!! swimming and tanning with JM. i love you baby!